It turns out that falling miserably behind in my reading/reflecting/blogging actually worked in my favor. While I was lost in my reading, I observed a recurring theme from Genesis chapters 24 through 37. I was amazed at all the chaos I observed in these thirteen chapters. These characters did some really terrible and messed up things to each other–their actions certainly weren’t Godly, just, or righteous. Just when I thought that there was no one in the bible that could have possibly messed up as much as I have–no one for me to relate to–God goes and proves me wrong. I’ve done some pretty terrible things and my life hasn’t exactly been perfect. As I was reading, I struggled to understand why these characters acted the way they did, when they heard God’s voice and commands so directly and intimately. Admittedly, I was surprised by how weak these characters were and by the choices they made, despite God’s clear presence in their life.
Wait a minute–rewind–those last two sentences apply to me. If someone were reading my story, he/she would probably ask his/herself why I didn’t just change my thoughts, because God is clearly present in my life. God is there in the smile of a stranger, in the hugs from my friends, and in the beauty of the world around me, each and every day. Some days it’s just really hard to see God and accept his presence because of all the other crap that is going on in our lives and through our heads. Sure I’m constantly praying throughout the day, but if I realized that God is there, right beside me, through my worst storms, I wouldn’t pray so hard for help as I would rejoice in thanksgiving for His loving support. We get so caught up in the turmoil of the storm that we lose sight of The One who is in the center of our storm, and what He is offering us–love, peace, acceptance, hope, and strength.
I was amazed and certainly encouraged as I repeatedly saw God’s presence in these character’s lives despite how bad they messed things up.
In Genesis chapter 24, when Abraham’s servant expresses doubt in himself and in God, Abraham gives us this first quote of encouragement about God’s constant presence amidst our greatest doubts and concerns in the storm of life:
“The Lord, before whom I have walked, will send his angel with you and make your journey a success.” Gen 24:40
(This is certainly a quote to write down and post on my wall somewhere) How cool is it to realize that God is always with us and before us, making the crooked paths straight, preparing everything for us to be successful?
As quick as Abraham is to reassure his servant and all of us of God’s great providence, Esau leads the way in turning away from God to satisfy his own needs himself. In Gen 25:24-34, Esau trades all of God’s promises for the immediate gratification of food. In this moment of weakness–physically and spiritually–Esau loses everything. I can’t blame Esau, I’m definitely guilty of putting my own needs above everything else, overlooking that fact that God will provide and take care of me. The important thing to remember is that God didn’t leave Esau because of his small faith–God still blessed Esau and took care of him later on in Genesis.
Moving forward, in chapter 26, Issac lies about Rebekah being his sister out of fear that claiming her as his wife would bring him death. (Lets be honest, what would you do in that situation?) When the leaders of the city see that Rebekah is Issac’s wife, they become angry because if one of them laid with her, it would have brought guilt upon them all. Despite the fact that Issac lied, “Issac…reaped a hundredfold because the Lord blessed him. The man became very rich” Gen 26:12-13. The Lord blessed Issac, even though he lied.
God is with us.
The storm only gets messier as Rebekah and Jacob conspire against Issac and Esau in order for Jacob to get Issac’s blessing in chapter 27. Pretty messy, right? You might even have to re-read that sentence a few times to get a solid grasp on who is doing what to whom. At this point in his life, Issac is very close to death. His sight is failing, along with the rest of his body. You could probably equate what Rebekah and Jacob do to someone who manipulates and robs a dying blind man on the street. I’ll leave it up to you, as the reader, to decide if the fact that Issac was their devoted husband and father (respectively) makes what Rebekah and Jacob did better or worse. My point however, is that what these people sinned against each other and against God, but
God was still with them.
Things only get messier for this family in Genesis chapters 27 and 28 when Esau plans to kill Jacob after their father, Issac, dies. Overhearing this, Rebekah, their mother, tells her favorite son, Jacob, to flee. In an attempt to make Jacob’s departure not look suspicious, Rebekah convinces Issac to bless Jacob so he can go away and find a pleasing woman to take as his wife. It’s getting kind of hard to follow, right? That’s what happens when we lie to and deceive others; life gets messy. Reading this part of the bible is almost like watching a Soap Opera. You can’t believe these characters are still making the same silly mistakes, and you just want to reach through the television screen or in the text, grab these characters, and shake some sense into them. Will they ever learn? Will I ever learn?
As Jacob journeys to Haran to find a wife, God comes to him in a dream. Despite the deceitful things Jacob has done, God assures him that He will bless Jacob with many descendants. God assures Jacob of His presence in Jacob’s messy life when he says,
“I am with you and will watch over you wherever you go, and I will bring you back… I will not leave you until I have done what I have promised you.” Gen 28:15
After this encounter with God, Jacob gives us a beautiful example of what our faith should look like:
“If God will be with me and will watch over me on this journey I am taking and will give me food to eat and clothes to wear so that I return safely to my father’s house, then the Lord will be my God and this stone that I have set up as a pillar will be God’s house, and of all that you give me I will give you a tenth.” Gen 28:20-22
In other words, if God promises to take care of us and provide for all of our needs–throughout even our greatest storms–then we have nothing to fear or doubt or worry about. We have only to trust Him and praise Him and give back to Him a portion of the blessings He has bestowed on us. I wish I had a faith like that–where I never worried about how I would pay all of my bills or where my next meal would from, but I simply trusted God to provide for me above and beyond what I could ever imagine. Jacob..1 Me..0. However, regardless of where my faith stands, I will find comfort in the fact that
God is with me.
In chapter 29, we see God’s faithfulness when Jacob finds a beautiful woman to take as his wife. My heart melted a little when I read this line:
“So Jacob served seven years to get Rachel, but they seemed like only a few days to him because of his love for her.” Gen 29:20
That’s what serving God and loving God should feel like and look like. Our love should be so great, that we would do anything to be with Him. Even if it meant dutifully serving a deceitful, conniving man like Laban; nothing should stop us from serving God, because our love for Him should know no limits, just as Jacob’s love for Rachel knew no limits.
And then…the storm of life raged on once more in Genesis chapter 30 as Rachel and Leah compete for Jacob’s love by seeing who can give him the most sons. As a last resort, both women give him their maidservants to have even more sons. Yes, God was present in this storm too. When He saw that Leah was not loved as much as Rachel, God made Rachel barren and blessed Leah with many sons. Likewise, when God saw Rachel’s pain, he opened her womb and blessed her with sons too. God did not abandon either of these women, even as they added their maidservants into this messy competition for Jacob’s love and attention.
God was with them.
Despite what God has done for her, Rachel still sins against Him by stealing her father’s household gods in Genesis chapter 31. Did God abandon Rachel afterwards? No. He still protected her and her family as the traveled away from her homeland with her husband and children. God must love us a heck of a lot to never abandon any of us, despite how frequently or badly we sin. How great is our God?
I think it’s safe to say that we’re starting to see the pattern. Even as Jacob goes on to deceive his brother, Esau, again and as Joseph’s brothers betray him and sell him into slavery, God still never left any of them. So, remember these two quotes when you feel like you’ve fallen too far, messed up too bad, like you’re beyond the point of redemption:
“The Lord, before whom I have walked, will send his angel with you and make your journey a success.” Gen 24:40
and
“I am with you and will watch over you wherever you go, and I will bring you back… I will not leave you until I have done what I have promised you.” Gen 28:15
If you ever need a model for your prayers when you are anxious or afraid, I encourage you to look at Gen 32:9-12 and read Jacob’s prayer to God. Jacob reminded God of his obedience, he recounted all of the blessing God had bestowed on him, he begged God to save him, and he reminded God of His promises.
As you continue throughout the rest of your day, I encourage you to reflect on your own personal storm and observe how God has been present throughout your storm.
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